me - inspire? no you inspire me . . . .

I was chatting with a relative on the facebook chat today, and she told me she loves reading my blogs, and that i inspire her, that i am always happy, and that I am brilliant! Obviously she has been into the sauce LOL. she also wants me to write a book

But let me answer her back - I wont name names, but I will tell her exactly what I feel . . . . .

Always happy: ummmm no! I have my bad days, my good days, my happy days and my sad days - but i just dont let the sad and bad take over the good and happy. I am so lucky, I have a roof over my head, food in my tummy and am surrounded by wonderful people. Two years ago I started to make a conscious decision to get rid of the toxic, negative people in my life. People that just love to complain, love to bitch, have to be pissed off at something all the time, suck the energy out of me . . . . and man, did it make a difference. It made me a different person - if they dont fit into my positive, light filled life - i dont need them, and send them packing.

Brilliant: ummmmm, No! LOL, i love to read, i keep up on current events, but I am by no means at all Brilliant. I am just finally comfortable enough with me now, that I am willing to take on a challenge, push myself to learn more, open up my life, heart and mind to alternative ideas. If all that makes me brilliant, then maybe I could one day be a genius.

Inspire - I wake up every day hoping that i can inspire someone, somehow in someway . . . however, i could not inspire others, if others did not inspire me. Let me tell how you how this woman has inspired me:

- went through the largest tragedy a parent can go through, the loss of a child. This lady hit rock bottom, yet pulled herself up, I can imagine that she wanted to take the place of her child - but she prevailed and moved forward, i am sure it was a slow, uphill, emotional trip but she continued to live and love her family. Any parent that can lift themselves out of bed in the morning, put a smile on their face - even 10 years later, or 15 years later, 0r 20 years laters, is an inspiration to me.
- made a home for her 'aging' (sorry G) mother, instead of leaving her to live alone in an apartment or seniors home. She made sure she was safe, warm, fed, loved, appreciated and close to her at all times. The circle of life, your mother raises and cares for you - and as your parents get older you return the favour. The love and caring that she shows for her mom is inspiring to me.
- is a support structure for her grandchildren. No matter what, no matter when, no matter how, she is there for her grandchildren. Having lost all my grandparents by the age of 5, the relationship i see between them all is wonderful, and empowering and I only hope the grandchildren will honour it for the rest of their lives!
- is just a damn nice person: always opening her door , always an invite for coffee/wine, always a kind word to say to me. When you empower others, you empower yourself. And empowerment provides inspiration.

so to that special lady who was on chat with me today . . . you know who you are, you know I appreciate you, you know I dont see you often enough!, you know I admire and honour you . . . . and that I am extremely proud to be part of your family. Love you W!